Like many others, I became a life-long seeker in response to pain and suffering. Experiences of deep anguish propelled me towards searching for a way to overcome it. I knew there was something more to life. As a young person I would sometimes experience an opening and heart connection with everything. It was as if all the barriers broke down and I was free. It was joy itself. But then came the return of the limited ‘me’, and with it, loss, disappointment, and despair.
Nonetheless, these tastes of freedom filled me with a deep longing.
It was years later before I had a context for this experience, and began to understand what was unfolding.
In 2011, I came across Scott Kiloby’s book, ‘Love’s Quiet Revolution’. As I became familiar with this and his other writings, I was particularly struck by what Scott terms ‘deficiency stories’; stories of lack and inadequacy. This theme resonated because I was already uncomfortably aware of inner patterns and beliefs about not being good enough, and frustrated by how they were influencing my life. I was living in the tension of striving for a better version of me: an undercurrent of inadequacy, feelings of less than and a drive for perfection drove the ‘show’ called my life’. Internally I was often on high alert or preoccupied with currents of anxiety or self-loathing. Such was my doubt it even extended to my seeking - at times I believed I was unworthy of deep peace.
When I encountered Scott, I was ready to really investigate what was holding those beliefs and patterns in place. His approach gave me a map with which to look more deeply. A year later in 2012 I enrolled on the training course to become a Living Inquiries Facilitator.
The most valuable impact of the Inquires is really knowing and trusting in a deeply embodied way that presence itself includes everything: the pain, suffering, pleasure and joy. When whatever arises is embraced in genuine presence, it is liberated. Intense feelings and sensations are welcomed and once met, by themselves subside and come to rest.
What I love about the Inquires is their simplicity, the mere act of being with what’s here right now, be it words, sensations or energies: it is Enough. To be fully present with - even curious – in meeting whatever is arising, and sensing the layers peel away.
The gift of Inquiry is there for you at any time to dip into whenever you want to.
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